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I'm Not Really Here

by Gary Lonesborough

A new town, a new crush, and unfinished struggles

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    Positive review describing the book as a moving coming-of-age story with heart.

AlbakiReads Editorial

A new town, a new crush, and unfinished struggles

Seventeen-year-old Jonah’s move with his father and younger brothers to the country town of Patience puts him in unfamiliar social territory. Joining the local soccer team brings him closer to Harley, his crush, while also opening the way to new friendships. The description places that fresh start alongside challenges Jonah carries with him: body-image concerns, memories of his mother, and an unresolved past. Family, friendship, queer romance, and grief all shape this coming-of-age story, with Jonah’s growing awareness of what he wants set against uncertainty about whether he is ready for it.

Good fit for readers who enjoy

  • Teens and young adults interested in coming-of-age fiction
  • Readers seeking a queer romance involving a teenage protagonist
  • Readers interested in stories about family, friendship, body image, and grief

Themes

Coming of ageQueer romanceFamily and friendshipBody imageGrief and memory

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Book overview

A wonderful coming-of-age queer romance from the multi award-winning author of The Boy from the Mish. Jonah is the new kid in a country town. When he joins the local soccer team to be closer to his crush, Harley, it feels like a fresh start - but he still has to navigate new friendships, an unresolved past, and the same body image issues he's always had.

"A moving coming-of-age story with so much heart. For readers who enjoyed Heartstopper." --BOOKS & PUBLISHING

Footsteps approach behind me. I turn and see an Aboriginal boy arriving at the doorway. He's tall, taller than me. He's got curly hair. His body is fit. His chest is chiseled and bare and he's wearing only football shorts.

When 17-year-old Jonah arrives in a new town - Patience - with his dad and younger brothers, it feels like a foreign place. A new town means he needs to make new friends - which isn't always easy. Especially when he's wrestling with his body image, and his memories of his mother.

When he joins the local soccer team so he can spend more time with his new crush, Harley, he feels like he's moving closer to something good. But even though he knows what he wants, it doesn't mean he's ready.

Emotionally compelling, honest and warm, I'm Not Really Here is a beautiful novel about navigating family and friendships, and finding a way through grief towards love, from an internationally acclaimed bestselling Indigenous author.

Praise for Gary Lonesborough

"What a revelation this young writer is. He is doing something no other male First Nations novelist has attempted: the YA Black queer genre that is a glimpse into another world view, at once confronting yet heartwarming." --Australian Book Review on We Didn't Think It Through

"A lightning bolt to the soul. The Boy from the Mish announces a bold, necessary new talent." --Will Kostakis
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