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How to Tell When We Will Die: On Pain, Disability, and Doom

by Johanna Hedva

Essays on illness, care, and collective life

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Essays on illness, care, and collective life

Johanna Hedva brings personal experience of chronic illness into conversation with disability politics, capitalism, and the social meaning of care. Expanding on the ideas introduced in “Sick Woman Theory,” the collection moves between theoretical and personal essays, drawing on subjects as varied as writers Deborah Levy and Susan Sontag, wrestling, kink, mysticism, death, and the color yellow. Hedva also examines the American healthcare system and considers figures they call the Psychotic Woman, the Freak, and the Hag in Charge. Across these subjects, the book questions systems that tie human worth to bodily productivity and argues for care as a shared, political practice.

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  • Readers interested in disability activism and the politics of care.
  • Readers who enjoy essay collections combining personal experience with cultural and political analysis.
  • Readers exploring illness, capitalism, and social expectations around productivity.

Themes

Disability and chronic illnessCare and interdependenceCapitalism and bodily productivityHealthcare and ableismPain, death, and mysticism

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Book overview

"A book for the moment and for the ages. It's questing, pissed, propulsive, funny, generous, pervy, and original--full of love and pain in all their entwined glory." --Maggie Nelson, author of The Argonauts

WINNER OF THE AMBER HOLLIBAUGH AWARD FOR LGBTQ+ SOCIAL JUSTICE WRITING


The long-awaited essay collection from one of the most influential voices in disability activism that detonates a bomb in our collective understanding of care and illness, showing us that sickness is a fact of life.


In the wake of the 2014 Ferguson riots, and sick with a chronic condition that rendered them housebound, Johanna Hedva turned to the page to ask: How do you throw a brick through the window of a bank if you can't get out of bed? It was not long before this essay, "Sick Woman Theory", became a seminal work on disability, because in reframing illness as not just a biological experience but a social one, Hedva argues that under capitalism--a system that limits our worth to the productivity of our bodies--we must reach for the revolutionary act of caring for ourselves and others.

How to Tell When We Will Die expands upon Hedva's paradigm-shifting perspective in a series of slyly subversive and razor-sharp essays that range from the theoretical to the personal--from Deborah Levy and Susan Sontag to wrestling, kink, mysticism, death, and the color yellow. Drawing from their experiences with America's byzantine healthcare system, and considering archetypes they call The Psychotic Woman, The Freak, and The Hag in Charge, Hedva offers a bracing indictment of the politics that exploit sickness--relying on and fueling ableism--to the detriment of us all.

With the insight of Anne Boyer's The Undying and Leslie Jamison's The Empathy Exams, and the wit of Samantha Irby, Hedva's debut collection upends our collective understanding of disability. In their radical reimagining of a world where care and pain are symbiotic, and our bodies are allowed to live free and well, Hedva implores us to remember that illness is neither an inconvenience or inevitability, but an enlivening and elemental part of being alive.
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