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The Astonishing Color of After

by Emily X. R. Pan

Grief, family history, and a search in Taiwan

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Grief, family history, and a search in Taiwan

Leigh Chen Sanders’s journey to Taiwan gives this story a way to explore grief alongside questions of family and identity. Hoping to find her mother, whom she believes has become a bird, Leigh meets her maternal grandparents and uncovers parts of a family history she has not known. The narrative moves between past and present, with magical elements interwoven with Leigh’s relationships, including her friendship and feelings for Axel. Art, love, and the experience of being half Asian and half white are part of the novel’s frame for considering how personal history shapes a sense of self.

Good fit for readers who enjoy

  • Teens and young adults interested in stories about grief and family relationships
  • Readers seeking Asian American and Taiwanese family perspectives
  • Readers who enjoy fiction combining magical elements with past-and-present storytelling

Themes

Grief and suicideFamily history and identityLove and friendshipArt and memoryTaiwanese family connections

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Book overview

A stunning, heartbreaking novel about grief, love, and family, perfect for fans of Jandy Nelson and Celeste Ng.

One of Time magazine's "100 Best YA Books of All Time"

"Emily X.R. Pan's brilliantly crafted, harrowing first novel portrays the vast spectrum of love and grief with heart-wrenching beauty and candor. This is a very special book." --John Green, bestselling author of The Fault in Our Stars and Turtles All the Way Down

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird. Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to reconcile the fact that on the same day she kissed her best friend and longtime secret crush, Axel, her mother was taking her own life.

Alternating between real and magic, past and present, friendship and romance, hope and despair, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning and heartbreaking novel about finding oneself through family history, art, grief, and love.
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