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This Close to Happy: A Reckoning with Depression

by Daphne Merkin

A memoir of depression across a life

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Awards & Recognition

  • Editorial selection

    The New York Times Book Review Editors' Choice

    The book is identified as an Editors' Choice selection.

  • Critical praise

    Praise from John Kaag in The Wall Street Journal

    John Kaag praises the book as an unusually accurate and harrowing account of depression, and commends Merkin’s c...

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A memoir of depression across a life

Daphne Merkin traces depression from childhood through adulthood, recounting three hospitalizations at distinct turning points: her early years, the period after her daughter’s birth, and the aftermath of her mother’s death. The memoir also connects that history to her love of reading and emergence as a writer, while considering how the illness has affected people around her. Merkin describes her present as high-functioning, with depression manageable but not cured. The book brings personal experience into conversation with the stigma surrounding mental illness, presenting a life shaped by recurring illness without reducing it to a single episode or resolution.

Good fit for readers who enjoy

  • Readers interested in memoirs about depression and mental illness
  • Readers seeking personal accounts that span childhood and adulthood
  • Readers interested in the connections between reading, writing, and lived experience

Themes

Depression across a lifetimeHospitalization and mental illnessStigma and disclosureReading and writingFamily and loss

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Book overview

"One of the most accurate, and therefore most harrowing, accounts of depression to be written in the last century...Ms. Merkin speaks candidly and beautifully about aspects of the human condition that usually remain pointedly silent (John Kaag, The Wall Street Journal).

Daphne Merkin has been hospitalized three times: first, in grade school, for childhood depression; years later, after her daughter was born, for severe postpartum depression; and later still, after her mother died, for obsessive suicidal thinking. The arc of Merkin's affliction is lifelong, beginning in a childhood largely bereft of love and stretching into the present, where Merkin lives a high-functioning life and her depression is manageable, if not "cured." In this dark yet vital memoir, Merkin describes not only the harrowing sorrow that she has known all her life, but also her early, redemptive love of reading and gradual emergence as a writer. Written with an acute understanding of the ways in which her condition has evolved as well as affected those around her, This Close to Happy is an utterly candid coming-to-terms with an illness that many share but few talk about, one that remains shrouded in stigma.

"It is standard fare to say books on depression are brave, but this one actually is....An important addition to the literature on mental illness."--Andrew Solomon, The New York Times Book Review (Editors' Choice)

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